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Sophomore year.
08.18.04 (8:11 pm)   [edit]

My first official day of sophomore year is tomorrow, August 19, 2004. Wish me luck and expect to find a fully detailed (if not slightly ranty) account of my first day posted here sometime tomorrow afternoon.


Pray for me! *whimper*


~Princess

 
men.
08.15.04 (6:02 pm)   [edit]

I have a question. And I know no one really wants to hear about my pathetic problems, but I'm gonna tell you about them anyway. A very close guy friend of mine, whom I love but in a platonic sense, asked me out. I want to say no, but I care too much about hurting his feelings and can't bring myself to flat out say it. Any ideas? Thanks everyone.


~Cess

 
Spontaneous Sort of Day
08.14.04 (5:33 pm)   [edit]

Have you ever rolled out of bed one morning and thought to yourself, I'm not making ANY plans today. I'll just decide what I want to do as I do it? Well, I had one of those days today. It kicked major monkies! I know what anyone who knows me is thinking, Cess do something spontaneous? ALERT THE PRESS, IT'S THE APOCALYPSE!!


Relax, it was nothing that major...kinda. Anyway, I woke up at like seven fifteen in the morning, after getting to bed after midnight, and decided to go hiking. I finished the whole trail with my mom and my aunt, and I was SO proud of myself. And then I tagged along with my mom and sister to their haircut appointment, where I attempted to talk my mom into getting herself a brilliant red mohawk. Unfortunately, I failed.


Then it was back to the house to hang out before heading to the mall. At the mall, we shopped around, got birthday presents for my step-dad, and then we stopped in at Claire's where, drum roll please, I got my left ear pierced. In the cartilage. TWICE! Boo ya! Hurray for me!


It hurts like a beast when I lay on it or touch it though. Oh well. I still did it and that's what's important!


~CeSs

 
news from the "gossip" room
08.12.04 (4:03 pm)   [edit]

I recently came across an article on the internet stating that the U.S. Navy has been testing a new kind of sonar called LFA. National security is necessary, but I doubt the death of marine life is. As it turns out, the Navy was supposedly secretly testing this low frequency sonar in international waters without proper clarification. The sounds of this sonar are so loud that they can maim, deafen, and kill whales, dolphins, and fish. It's the equivalent of dying from a migrane headache. For more information, visit the URL below.


http://environment.about.com/cs/oceans/a/LFAS.htm" title="http://environment.about.com/cs/oceans/a/LFAS.htm" target="_blank"http://environment.about.com/...


Thanks for caring.


~Cess

 
aimless rant
08.11.04 (1:37 pm)   [edit]

God. I'm so sick and tired of these ridiculously overpriveleged little tarts whining on about their nonexistant problems. I don't know if I can take another post of: Everyone hates me, Brittany yelled at me today, what am I gonna do? Or: Dude, I think Josh is pissed at me. My life sux.


IT'S SO FREAKING ANNOYING!


Don't get me wrong, I know everyone does this, myself included, but I still think it's annoying. Okay. Rant over.

 
hypnotica
08.11.04 (1:07 am)   [edit]

People say that you can't remember anything before the age of seven. It's like you just burst into life at the age of seven. It's crazy! But I think that I'd like to be hypnotized in order to remember all the stuff I've forgotten someday. Just for fun, you know? I'd like to see how intellectual I was as a baby. That'd be something wouldn't it? Anyway. Just a thought. I'm a computer addict, thus all the entries.

 
Sun-baked.
08.10.04 (8:22 pm)   [edit]

I spent the majority of my day at the hotel that my uncle's mom is staying at. I was employed, along with my little sister, to help him watch his triplet boys in the pool. Hence the whole sun-baked thing. I managed to get away with slightly pink cheeks, and I was having fun watching the rather pretty pool boys.


I think it's a requirement to be at least a little pretty if you're going to work poolside at a hotel. Pity.


Anyway, I went back-to-school shopping. It was fun-ish. Yeah, for future reference, I'm a rambling, crazy person. And I have yet another random thought/question for everyone to think about.


What exactly are the best years of your life? Personally, I would think each year would be the best year of your life, considering the fact that you're still alive. Anyway, think about it.


~Cess

 
I'm back, back, back. Back again.
08.10.04 (9:11 am)   [edit]

:cry: I'm so awful! I planned on coming back to my tBlog and never got around to. I became a Livejournal slut! Please forgive me!!!


Ah, anyway. Not much new is going on in my life right now. I'm working on a short story, pieces of which I'll post here for editing and reader commentary, of course! X3


Other than that, I'm merely preparing for my birthday party and dreading the day that school begins again. I'll be a sophomore in high school, and I hate that the kids who were sevvies when I was an eighth grader are returning to torment me. I'm not giving them any warnings this time around. If they're still as self-centered and stuck-up as they were when I knew them, they've got a rude awakening on its way.


Now that I'm done venting, I think I should post a few random thoughts....'cause my thought process is amusing. At least, I consider it amusing.


Okay, today's random thought: If you could go back up to one full year (365 days) into the past, what would you change? Know that answer to that question? Good. Here's its partner in crime. How would that event that you changed alter your life today?


See? I'm good.


Bye now,


CeSs

:D
 
Making a Come-back.
06.04.04 (10:59 am)   [edit]
It just now occurs to me that I've been gone for an amazingly long time. But one thing got in the way of the other and...you know. Anyway. The only thing that's really up with me right now is my current RPG phase. That and the fact that I love Rupert Grint and want to have his red-haired babies. (Only joking about the babies part, everyone.)

I decided a few days ago that I really missed my tBlog and am now attempting to reintroduce myself into the delicate balance that is tBlog. Here I go. *leaps in*

Fwaaa!

~Cess
 
my life = hell
03.03.04 (7:24 pm)   [edit]
:x Why must the world me so? I mean, I can't help but wonder if there's a gang of conspirators out there that are planning my untimely demise even as I type. Not that I'm an important enough person to gain a group of conspirators, y'know, but one can wonder about assassination nonetheles, I suppose.

Stupid algebra. Stupid biology. Stupid language arts. Stupid school. If I thought for a minute that I didn't need you, I'd leave you lying in the dirt. I do enjoy spending time with my friends, though. That's the only pro in a neverending sea of cons.

On another note: Sorry for not updating in forever, but I've been working on finding a way out of hell so, yeah. Anyway. I'll update again later. Ta-ta.
:(

Cess
 
shut up
01.17.04 (8:54 pm)   [edit]
Okay, as for me not having anything deep to say, I lied. I thought about it, and decided that, in order to find a blog topic, I should comb through some of my older posts and see if there are any links between them. There are.

The only really major link that I saw is as follows: When people are putting pressure on me, or when I have a problem to face, I tend to block things out. I up the volume on whatever musical source available to me at the time, and attempt to hide among the notes. I try to lose myself in a moment too intense for me, and I think that some days I stay lost.

Lost in my own reflection. Lost in the mirror that is my heart, lost in the emptiness that is my mind. I try to get lost, unaware of how hard it could be for me to find my way again. What is it about losing myself that appeals to me so much?

Sometimes I think I just want to leave who I am behind and live as someone else, doing something else, being something else. Anyway.

Okay, I must get back to my family, my life, my reality. My heaven, my hell. My solace, my destruction. I must get back to me....

~CeSs :shock: (Wow, that WAS deep....)
 
Get Real
01.17.04 (8:47 pm)   [edit]
:D Amazing how much of an influence movies can have on us, eh? I mean, just the other day I was watching a wonderful British movie about two guys called Get Real. My mom called me, since I was, in fact, at my cousin's house, and I answered the phone, " 'Allo, Mum. When're you gonna get here?"

Ordinarily, I wouldn't think that there was anything wrong with that, had I not said it all in a British accent. I was laughing so hard. Anyway, on to other topics.

I find myself devoid of anything particularly deep to say....

I think something along the lines of, "Holy crap my life is boring as hell." should work, but I'm not sure.

Anyone who has suggestions for tBlog subjects, e-mail them to me at:

imitationpoet@cox.net

or talk to me on AIM:

HDslashfanatic

Thanks.

~CeSs
 
not in a long time
01.16.04 (5:33 pm)   [edit]
:? It's been like, forever since I posted here! I miss it so much! Man o man alive! Anyway. Having a tennis clinic for three hours every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday added up with my other extra-curricular activities and my C- in Biology doesn't exactly help my tBlog that much.

Today I don't have much to say, but for two things. Number one, I will be spending the night at my friend's house tonight. Ah the wonderful break in the neverending chain that is reality. It's a system that remains normal as ever, until it gets tedious and remedial. But only after reality can we reach the heaven, or the hell, that we've craved for our whole lives.

On the other note that I wanted to speak of, I have a C in Biology. And not just a normal C, a C MINUS! I find myself wondering how on earth I dragged myself down so far, and then I realize it. I despise numbers. As little as you'd think this has to do with Biology, it really does help my point. My hatred of numbers proves my lack of interest in all things analytical. I'm a creative mind, someone who finds peace on blank paper, a passion in words, and an unbreakable, nigh heavenly, solace in music. Anyway, I must be off to eat my hot dog and tater tots.

Oh the tangled webs we weave. Which are then destroyed by curious children with hairspray and matches. Talk about your irony, eh?

~CeSs :D
 
my obsession
01.07.04 (7:52 pm)   [edit]
:!: I tried to post twice yesterday and tBlog wouldn't let me! But now that that technical difficulty seems to be over and done with, I shall expand on the events of my day.

It started off like a normal, everyday day. And then, it turned out to be a better than normal, everyday day. And tomorrow I have Fitness Center for the first time! I mean, I change out for the first time. Only problem, it's mostly gonna be running. And I running.

Not because I'm lazy, although I AM quite lazy. It's because I am the slowest, least graceful person placed onto the face of the earth. Yep. That's right folks. I'm a loser! And proud of it too!

By the way.....if the words D/H (or H/D) slash mean anything to anyone, send me a message, okay? Thanks much.

~Cess :twisted:
 
Croquette
12.29.03 (11:21 am)   [edit]
:D Just a little picture I drew that I thought I'd share with you tBloggers. Crticism is greatly appreciated. So long as its advice, not random bashing.

[image]FicklePrincess_270 716987.jpg[/image]
 
Concerning Hobbits...
12.29.03 (11:11 am)   [edit]
Yay! I saw Return of the King again yesterday for the SECOND time!

I really do enjoy that movie. Its battle scenes are superior and the acting in it is wonderful.

But, at the same time that I enjoyed this "serious" movie, I found many, many humorous things in it. Click the link below for a list.

[url=]http://fiorerosso.tripod.com/...[/url]

Yeah they kinda kill the movie, but they're purty funny! :wink:

~Cess
 
Wow
12.28.03 (10:41 pm)   [edit]
:( I'm sorry that I haven't posted in a while. But I've been caught up in the rush of holidays and finals, y'know? I mean, it's like I never get any peace anymore. It's like no sleep can satisfy my exhaustion, no tears can quench my body's thirst. I'm afraid of what will happen if I push myself beyond my limits. But then, you know what they say. Guess and check...

~CeSs
 
Christmas Partay!
12.20.03 (2:18 pm)   [edit]
:D Yay! I'm having a Christmas party today. Well, it's more of a gathering of me plus four other people really...But whatever!

It should be fairly fun, assuming my parents aren't embarassing and clingy...which they very well may be. My mommy bought mistletoe just for two of my friends. Yet she has no idea that she did this. She thinks I just wanted mistletoe....*snort*

What would I want mistletoe for? I don't like anyone coming to my party....well, not LIKE LIKE (as in think they're the most perfect person in the world like).

So here it goes. Must run away and stare menacingly at the clock until it speeds up.

~Cess
 
Issues
12.17.03 (7:11 pm)   [edit]
Today was a wierd, off the wall kind of day, as can be expected during the week of beautiful semester finals. I h a t e them. They can go crawl into a hole and die. I'm not a test person at all. I get all pressured and scared and then I wimp out. La-la-la!

Anyway, today I'm in health, right? (Those of you tempted to say: No you weren't. Please refrain. Those of you tempted to say: No you weren't cause you were with me all mornin', baby. Can carry on so long as you're really hott and funny.)

Anyway again, I'm in health, and I go to see what my grade is, and my teacher asks me if I have home problems....I don't. But for some reason, he thinks I do.

I never realized that I came off as one of those "home issue" children. Because I'm fine at home. Except for the occasional divorced parent argument, nothing much happens. But I am going to attempt to leave the Twilight Zone now. Ta-ta for now!

Your Very Favorite Disturbeded Princess:
~CeSs :?
 
Little Rebel
12.16.03 (8:32 am)   [edit]
Being all "rebellious" and posting during Spanish class. Wait a second, you get computers in Spanish class? No. We're just doing a test that involves us typing up a letter for Spanish. Therefore, I am here. By the way, has anyone here ever read the Very Secret Diaries by Cassandra Claire? Some of the funniest parodies I ever read. I highly suggest them. Lol. Check the links bar for a link to the VERY SECRET DIARIES! YOU MUST READ THEM! Okay. C'iao.

~CeSs
 
Publishing
12.13.03 (11:24 am)   [edit]
I was checking my e-mail this morning, and I found that I had an e-mail from a publishing company in the UK that ws requesting to publsih some of my poetry in a book they have coming out next February. Unfortunately I didn't feel like partaking in this particular event.

It still feels nice to be appreciated though. I have a question:

Anybody here have any suggestions on how to let a guy down easy? My friend really likes me. He asked me out and I declined, but he's a persistent little bugger and won't get off my case.

Anyway. TTYL tBloggers.

~CeSs
 
Publishing
12.13.03 (11:20 am)   [edit]
I was checking my e-mail this morning, and I found that I had an e-mail from a publishing company in the UK that ws requesting to publsih some of my poetry in a book they have coming out next February. Unfortunately I didn't feel like partaking in this particular event.

It still feels nice to be appreciated though. I have a question:

Anybody here have any suggestions on how to let a guy down easy? My friend really likes me. He asked me out and I declined, but he's a persistent little bugger and won't get off my case.

Anyway. TTYL tBloggers.

~CeSs
 
Another Day, Another Blog
12.12.03 (3:36 pm)   [edit]
Okay. Today was a fun day, I'll admit. This morning sucked monkey booty though. I wake up and my step-dad starts ragging on me immediately. I didn't even do anything and he's sitting there telling me how I never follow through with promises and how I'm difficult and how my mom is going to be mad at me. I just shut it all out and went on with my life.

School was better. I had an Algebra test and I actually find myself looking forward to the final in that class. :shock: Scary I know. I have an A in Spanish. My grade could be an A+ but I had a few missing assignments. I had a test in biology. I bombed it. Badly. But the final shall not be the same! And the rest of the day rocked!

Until my art class though. I drew a disturbing picture (as shown below) and all of the guys except one at my table were trying to turn it into something naughty. I called them all names having to do with the word horny.

It was wierd because that pissed me off so much that I actually stopped talking for a while. I didn't talk to the guys that were making fun of it at all after that, but I did talk to my one friend at the table who's a girl. She's leaving me next semester! Waaah! :cry:

Anyway, on to my life. I shall leave the world of cyberspace behind and carry on my merry way!

~CeSs
 
RPG wierdness
12.11.03 (8:09 pm)   [edit]
:? Me and my friend were just chatting with another friend of ours in a chatroom on AOL and an uninvited person just showed up. It freaked me out because they were being all wierd.

As you can tell my slightly sorrowful mood has worn off for the moment and I am now stuck in full swing hyperness! For now. It'll wear off too, in time.

Til then, your sugar-high shutterbug,
CeSs!
 
Just to fall away...
12.11.03 (6:59 pm)   [edit]
:( I walked into my biology class today, only to find a very close friend of mine sitting at her desk crying. I didn't know why, but I wanted to, so I asked. Is that so wrong? Anyway.

Her best friend, a she knew from her church from when she first moved out here from Michigan, ODed on and is in the hospital.

Small world, huh?

I don't understand how people can think that life could be so bad that they want to end it. You hear about these things in the news all the time, in lyrics all the time. At least, I did.

But I lived such a sheltered life that I didn't realize what kind of messed up shift goes on in the real world. I didn't know that what I was seeing was real. I didn't know that it wasn't just statistics.

Kids think they're getting missed by more people if they kill themselves, but all they've done is comitted a and devastated those close to them. They become just another statistic. How anyone could want that for themselves I just don't see.

If I offend anyone by posting this, too bad for you. It's my opinion, it's what I believe is true.

That's what this is all about, right? Opinions. It's always about perception and the way you see the world.

Hopefully people will start to see the world in technicolor again, instead of being stuck in an endless loop of grey.

~CeSs :cry:
 
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